such a fool, I hate your luck!

It’s pathetic that you cry
When again, you’re the last one left to die
Courage, vision, talent, cuteness, love and passion, aims and pride
All you do is meaningful, but you just can’t realize
The luck you have, the light you spread
The chances you never appreciate
Such a fucker, such a shame!

You’re still young; you’ll find your half
Why all worries when you’re not… ready yet for what’s to have
Happiness at 25 is like knowing your life’s path
What will you expect when …quarter of what you are now
Will be multiplied by 9?

Discovery and fight makes life
The journey that you can’t give up
Experiencing conflict, contrast, beauty and the spicy ride
The unknown that hangs your dreams on a rope that links the sun
With the gold, warm sand that’s cast
Inbetween your toes to rest
Stop complaining, cut that shit!

I would die to have your place...

morning news

You sip the morning coffee lines
Politics is poetry; arrogance is in your mind
You know I only recognize
Some names on one side of page 5
Is always numbers, figures, tests, calendars and schedules
All big titles, some are lies, is the thing that sparks your eye
Bluest sign of satisfaction as EU is firstly tracked
Then new info of a conflict never ending in Irak.

Is the world you understand, or maybe I just pretend
That the answers are out there
Wrapped in news that entertain you

Cause everytime you wave at ghosts… checking again
They don’t reply
Look at the enlightened sky
Do you still want to touch the stars?
Would you embrace the sun if it’d be close enough?
And everytime you want to know if certain of your moves was right
Do you always look for answers in the papers at your right?


Half the world reads what they write
Those words had never reached my mind
While most are lost, still think they found
The meaning and the path of life
I would like to fly in space, touch black holes, carve your name in sands of Mars
Take up journeys with closed eyes, open up my lazy mind
I’d like the sea, the waves, the tide to teach me things while fingers play in your hair…
Or with ideas in our minds.

Is every second breath inhaled meant to be a question why?
I’m so disturbed by the wrong signals
Of what I feel and what I want

Cause everytime I wave at ghosts… checking again
They don’t reply
I look at your enlightened sky
Did I forget to dream of stars?
Would I embrace your kiss, if it’d be close enough?
And everytime I hope your charm will grab again my lonely heart
Should I try to find the comfort in the papers that they write?


I would like to hold your hand, look up or down, feel happy, plain or sometimes cry
I’d like to have you in my arms, I’d like that you would love what lies
Between the blue of sea and sky.

 

love me back!

All those people that I love
I just run away from them
How can they then love me back,
When I’m never there for them?

What is this? Can be called love?
What is careless, what is fair?
What you give is what I get?
Am I just confused or wrecked?

Love is here, love is there
But is never where I care
Will this chain ever be fair?
May I love you… are you there?

I expect and then complain
I forgive and then forget
I repeat the same mistake
I’m not here or anywhere

I believe that I deserve
All the presents that I get
I give out to someone else
Then they pass it all ahead

Love is here, love is there
But I never cared to share
Next, the chain will turn to fair
I didn’t find you… if you’re there.

 

then run...

I will run until the cold wind burns the blisters on my face
I will run and washing rain will disperse all the mistakes
I will hide so that the light won’t ever see my selfishness
I will run to chase away the monsters that have fuelled my head
I will run to leave behind the idiot inside I fed
I will run from all those places that could not make me feel safe

I will run to lose the people who inspired my useless dream
I will run to leave behind all the things that I can’t win
I will run so that last hopes won’t have time to turn to faith
I will run til sweat will burn convulsive breaths and shoes will snap

I will run and run and run
And eventually my pulse will break

Then my soul will find a place
To stop all of that running away
For once maybe then I will listen
To all things you have to say

Since for now I am too busy
Feeling sorry for myself

 

silence

It’s not your fault this time
It’s just the light behind
That makes my shadow dark
That secret that I keep
Away from my own reach
With hands thrown in my pockets
I ignore letting it out

Another short reply
Another little lie

And now I close my eyes
I’ve promised not to hide
Alienated smiles
A cardboard box behind
A screen the shows a map

Distracted angst is running
Drops slowly down the spine
My mouth is dry
My heart is drowned
The space between my thoughts feels lite
The awkward gesture of my arm
Sweet words are swallowed by the mind

Another mean remark
Disguising a reply

I’m looking at the map
And search for the right path
With perplexed eyes I wonder
Why still I stumble though it’s light?

And staring at the ground
I found a place to hide
Inbetween…
The blue of sea and sky.