the flight

You’re projected in the air, high up in the sky, you sense again
The time to fly!
With eyes tight shut, the widest blue and lightest clouds feel as if fell
Out of time.
Your arms are seized in rapture’s charms and turned in wings,
So you can glide.
You’re dancing in the air now, love is your delirium, you’re…
Disappeared in delight.

Emotion, bliss and lust are the ones that give you wings,
They make you fly.
Still wings are double-dealing: enrapture hazards safety;
Look down… the ground!
Now you’re afraid you’ll fall, it’s so intense, can hardly breathe
This happiness you feel!
What if her lips and yours are set apart, you lose your balance
…And you’re crushed!

But now her warmth is burning you, her fingers linger
On your thigh.
You knew her soul right from first glance and when you breathe in
She breathes out.
You shiver slightly when her lips touch your face, your neck,
Your back.
She guides you towards Heaven when her dark eyes smile gently…
So you fly!

The world looks full of colour from above; you feel that you’re in love
But still, so high!
Your soul’s an open wound now, fearing to be stepped on, laughed at,
Or be trashed.
And heart’s always a raptor, she’s soaring round and round, and won’t take long
Till quarry’s eyed.
And in the end, who’d dare to fight this warrior that’s taking over reason
Blindfolding the mind?

She lets go of your hand; dark eyes are emptied now of all the meanings
They used to hold inside.
It’s time for her to move on and for you it’s time to fly,
Alone this time.
And you say: “I’m afraid, afraid to fall! I’m so scared to let you go! I’m so tired
And I’m lost!”
Instinctively try to fight fate and close your eyes to hide the darkness that you feel
But it’s too late.
Your wings are set on fire now, they burn, they bleed, they hurt!
They quickly fall away.

You used to say you’ll fly from here and one day float over this town
There you are!
Your last second in the sky, have a last look and goodbye, fallen star
It’s time to die.
With bird-eyed greed, raptor heads down for your heart, the broken piece
That has almost touched the ground.
It’s useless now to think “I knew it! I expected it from start”, decide next time
To stop in time.
Since you only feel alive when you fly, and find out how high you got when you are
On your way down.


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this is how it goes...

I’d like to give you back these tears, I have filled a sea already
And the winds bring to my nostrils the smell of sadness you created
I’d imagine how much crying takes to fill those dried out deserts,
You burned lands, forests and cities with your crave for love and care.

I’d be happy to begin where I think I must have changed
But before New Year came, I forgot what I have said …and forgot when it began
And my lips forgot your taste and my hands forgot your shape.
I saw a rainbow the first day, on the Blackrock sandy bay
The tide was low, I couldn’t sail but I could walk on rocks …and smell the salty air
Feels like I’m in love again, yet I didn’t change my name
I won’t marry loneliness, she’s too quiet for my taste.

I’d like to give you back these tears, they don’t fit with my new costume,
I dressed in strength to fight with fate, I‘ll search affection somewhere else.
I hope you find your love and care before dried eyes will drown all left
I wish I’d make the last example of a fool who lost your game.

confession of the long distance runner

I believe in love at first sight
I believe in happy endings
I believe that dreams come true
And I believe in happiness.
I believe in true love only
I believe I recognize you
Every time you pass me by
And when you will see me back
That’s when our eyes will meet
And I’ll know that you’re the one.
Until then I’ll keep on searching
It’s enough to happen once
If it’s mutual and honest
From then on it won’t be hard.
Cause I believe with all my inside
That I don’t have to give up
And I’m bound to follow blindly
The paths lied ahead by heart.

Sometimes I’m tired
Sometimes seems hard
Sometimes feels lonely
Sometimes wrong.
Sometimes confused
Sometimes I give up.

But as hard as I have tried
The only one that I can’t lie
Is the one that breaths my breath
And turns my head
And feeds my mouth.
Is the one that feels my love
And hurts my pain
And tastes my blood.
Is the one… that will always live my life.

So I must believe in true love, happy endings, dreams come true, love at first sight; and I dream and hope and fight cause I listen to my heart.

roundabouts

Most times I don’t even realize
Passing days before my eyes
And if I wouldn’t feel so tired
I’d nearly say is morning time.
When I don’t work I get caught in
Surfing websites, writing lines
Staring out with empty eyes
Thinking of exciting plans…

And I am waiting
And keep waiting, waiting for the day to pass
Or so it seems…
Until is 5.

Then cycling is sensorial
Consciousness only defined
By colours, scents, the taste of lime
Smelling spring, enjoy the sun.
But hilariously, when I’m home
I wait for the next day to come
So every day to work and back
I cycle the same roundabout.

But I am missing
And keep missing, missing warmness of a touch
Or so it seems…
And I feel white.

And sometimes talk and talk and talk…
Hoping sounds will fill my hole
The echoes ease my loneliness
Like tears are washing heaviness.
Some feelings wouldn’t let me rest
So I dug space within my chest
I’m peaceful now when I can hear
The beating sounds of emptiness.

Now I am nowhere
Nowhere else then where I want, I am the rhythm of my heart
Or so it seems…
In roundabouts.